Bring on the boobs!

So usually when I'm laying in bed at night waiting for sleep to come, I think about what happened during the day and if I should blog about it. Last night I had a whole blog post written in my head and my last thought was, "Now all I have to do is remember this in the morning". Well guess, what? I forgot. I'm pretty sure it had to do with breastfeeding though.

When I was trying to decide whether or not/how long to breastfeed Hunter, it was hard, especially in those first couple of weeks when, for me at least, it is excruciating and I want to quit all day every day. Brandon would try to convince me that once it quit hurting, I loved breastfeeding Haylie and I should just keep at it. I still don't remember ever loving breastfeeding Haylie. I think it's funny how everyone says breastfeeding is so convenient. Really? It is convenient to have to haul your baby with you everywhere because you want to go shopping and you don't want to have to be on a time limit? And where in Target is there a suitable breastfeeding spot other than in the bathroom where you have to cover up the automatic flush sensor or you will end up with a wet behind? When I am a breastfeeding mother I feel like all I ever do is feel jealous of the non-breastfeeding mothers who can come and go as they please and just hand a bottle to their baby when they're hungry.

But lately I've been feeling differently. I've really been enjoying breastfeeding Hunter. Even in the middle of the night when he wakes up 6,234,457 times and won't go to sleep without 'lil a tug on jug to send him back to dreamland. I love that he is such a snuggly baby too. Haylie wasn't the snuggliest, so maybe that's the difference. I love that he loves me so much, and that sometimes all he wants is me, even though that can also be a burden. I think that I'll actually miss this time with him when it's over, and so I'm really trying to cherish it while it lasts. He's also doing the really cute/somewhat annoying game where he'll be eating and then he'll unlatch and grin up at me like I just told a funny joke and then he'll get back to business. He'll continue to do this 10 times during a feeding and it's so adorable when we're not in a hurry.

Anyways. I just thought I should actually record the fact that I am in fact enjoying breastfeeding for when/if we have another child and I try to get out of it again.